Mam, I started work again this month but it is very hard as I still miss you so much and it is difficult to go out for a long day at work, unable to call you at lunchtime to ask if you would like me to bring anything home. I'd give anything to hear your voice again. It's so hard to come home and not hear you say 'Hello, Gill, how was your day?'. Just to share my day with you was always so lovely. I have been in the garden, it's very hot today. You would say I have been doing too much but the grass is growing so quickly. I'll finish it all tomorrow as it is too hot. Love you forever, mam. Miss you so terribly. There is such a void in my life without you xxx